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How diamonds took over the world

This is in response to Startup Edition's prompt for this week: What is the single greatest startup hack you've seen?

Since I know nothing about startups or hacks or great things, I appealed to my cofounder Deven for advice. He suggested two things. One, the epic arbitrage that the Rothschild 'bank' engineered by strategically placing four brothers in different financial centers around the world and hiring the fastest ships to swap information before the general public could. Two, diamonds.

Since he said I'd have to read a giant book to learn about the Rothschild and I had about two days to write this post, I decided to go with diamonds.

This response interprets every aspect of the question loosely, but I think there's still quite a valuable lesson to be found somewhere here in the rough. If you find it, let me know.

Behind the modest, lowly diamond lies pretty much the greatest marketing scheme of all time. The diamond market is a monopoly, and it has been flourishing without fail for almost a century now. In fact, I'm getting most of my information from an article published in 1982, and it's incredible to see how little has changed in over 30 years.

Long story somewhat shorter, diamonds were pretty scarce until just about the end of the 19th century. But then a bunch of people found a shitton of diamonds in Africa, and they were like oh shit, this is totally going to deluge the market and devalue diamonds. So they decided to all band together in 1888 and form the De Beers Consolidated Mines, Ltd. company, which promptly took over pretty much every aspect of the diamond industry ever.

In economics we learned that you can tell when a monopoly exists by how goods are advertised. If specific brands are advertised, such as “Crest toothpaste”, there's no monopoly. But if the very good itself is advertised, such as “diamonds are forever” - you've got a monopoly. Not only did De Beers own every single mine in southern Africa, but they also had diamond trading companies in England, Portugal, Israel, Belgium, Holland, and Switzerland.

De Beers has been so successful that unlike pretty much every other commodity on the face of the planet, the price of diamonds has risen virtually without fail every single year since the Great Depression.

This is a chart of the price of a 1 carat D loupe clean diamond from 1960 to 2010:

Mmm...diamonds...

How did De Beers manage this? They realized they had control not only supply of diamonds, but manufacture demand for them as well.

After World War I, the demand for diamonds had drastically dropped in America as “the result of the economy, changes in social attitudes and the promotion of competitive luxuries.” Not only had the volume of diamonds sold dropped by 50%, but the quality of the diamonds being sold had dropped by 100%. Diamonds were pretty much unheard of everywhere but America, and even there, they were far from holding the exclusive monopoly on engagement ring jewels that they do now.

To counter this, Harry Oppenheimer, the son of the founder of De Beers, recruited the advertising agency N.W. Ayer to revitalize the popularity of diamonds. N.W. Ayer promptly set to work and determined that they would romanticize the diamond and plant the notion in the minds of young men that diamonds were a gift of love, and that the bigger the diamond bought, the greater the expression of love. At the same time, women had to view diamonds as a crucial part of any relationship.

How do you change popular opinion on a mass scale? Movies.

Movie idols, the paragons of romance for the mass audience, would be given diamonds to use as their symbols of indestructible love. In addition, the agency suggested offering stories and society photographs to selected magazines and newspapers which would reinforce the link between diamonds and romance. Stories would stress the size of diamonds that celebrities presented to their loved ones, and photographs would conspicuously show the glittering stone on the hand of a well-known woman. Fashion designers would talk on radio programs about the “trend towards diamonds” that Ayer planned to start. The Ayer plan also envisioned using the British royal family to help foster the romantic allure of diamonds. An Ayer memo said, “Since Great Britain has such an important interest in the diamond industry, the royal couple could be of tremendous assistance to this British industry by wearing diamonds rather than other jewels.” Queen Elizabeth later went on a well-publicized trip to several South African diamond mines, and she accepted a diamond from Oppenheimer.

A copywriter also came up with the catchphrase “A diamond is forever”, which rapidly ascended to become the official motto of De Beers and is now ubiquitous in the minds of people everywhere. It's held in popular, seemingly unshakable belief that a diamond is somehow indestructible and will last forever (just like the love it symbolizes), despite the fact that a diamond can be “shattered, chipped, discolored, or incinerated to ash”. Incredible.

Diamond sales skyrocketed, but there was still some resistance to the notion of a diamond as a proper engagement ring jewel. N.W. Ayer decided to up the ante, and essentially began controlling every aspect of media being published about diamonds. They turned to television and arranged more celebrities to appear on the set with diamonds. They set up a Diamond Information Center and essentially manufactured tons of press about diamonds, and then made it seem legitimate by approving it by the DIC. They made the DIC seem like the foremost authority on diamonds, and consequently ensured that every news source came straight to the DIC when they wanted to publish anything about diamonds anywhere. Hence, they controlled not only all the diamonds in the world and pretty much all the trading centers for the diamonds, but also all the media about diamonds. Everything, fabricated by one unfathomably insidious company, pervasive and omnipresent everywhere.

The result?

Toward the end of the 1950s, N. W. Ayer reported to De Beers that twenty years of advertisements and publicity had had a pronounced effect on the American psyche. “Since 1939 an entirely new generation of young people has grown to marriageable age,” it said. “To this new generation a diamond ring is considered a necessity to engagements by virtually everyone.” The message had been so successfully impressed on the minds of this generation that those who could not afford to buy a diamond at the time of their marriage would “defer the purchase” rather than forgo it.

But De Beers didn't stop there. They were dead set on taking over the world. Only problem? The rest of the world didn't give one shit about diamonds. Well, actually, that's no problem at all. Here's how they took over Japan:

Until the mid-1960s, Japanese parents arranged marriages for their children through trusted intermediaries. The ceremony was consummated, according to Shinto law, by the bride and groom drinking rice wine from the same wooden bowl. There was no tradition of romance, courtship, seduction, or prenuptial love in Japan; and none that required the gift of a diamond engagement ring. Even the fact that millions of American soldiers had been assigned to military duty in Japan for a decade had not created any substantial Japanese interest in giving diamonds as a token of love.

J. Walter Thompson began its campaign by suggesting that diamonds were a visible sign of modern Western values. It created a series of color advertisements in Japanese magazines showing beautiful women displaying their diamond rings. All the women had Western facial features and wore European clothes. Moreover, the women in most of the advertisements were involved in some activity – such as bicycling, camping, yachting, ocean swimming, or mountain climbing – that defied Japanese traditions. In the background, there usually stood a Japanese man, also attired in fashionable European clothes. In addition, almost all of the automobiles, sporting equipment, and other artifacts in the picture were conspicuous foreign imports. The message was clear: diamonds represent a sharp break with the Oriental past and a sign of entry into modern life.

The campaign was remarkably successful. Until 1959, the importation of diamonds had not even been permitted by the postwar Japanese government. When the campaign began, in 1967, not quite 5 percent of engaged Japanese women received a diamond engagement ring. By 1972, the proportion had risen to 27 percent. By 1978, half of all Japanese women who were married wore a diamond; by 1981, some 60 percent of Japanese brides wore diamonds. In a mere fourteen years, the 1,500-year Japanese tradition had been radically revised. Diamonds became a staple of the Japanese marriage. Japan became the second largest market, after the United States, for the sale of diamond engagement rings.

Yeah. Oh, and guess what? You can't sell diamonds, either. Turns out the small diamonds sold in jewelry and engagement rings are practically worthless. Even large stones in jewelry are generally flawed (with the flaws covered tactfully by the setting) and can't be remarketed as investment grade. That's the brilliance behind it - every year, De Beers can mine more diamonds, and there is never a resale market. Almost all the diamonds ever sold remain sold and are thus removed from the marketplace, ensuring that there is a constant steady demand for the new diamonds De Beers mines.

Diamonds in jewelry are generally sold at an insane markup - if you ever try to sell a diamond, you'll be lucky to get a third of what you paid for it back. Moreover, the ingenious marketing positioning of De Beers ensures that most people don't even want to sell their diamonds - diamonds are forever, and are a symbol of everlasting love to be kept and cherished forever. To sell a diamond would be like disregarding that love and pawning it. You wouldn't want to do that, would you?

In closing, it's almost shocking how manipulable trends and people are. I suppose we really do just take our cues from everyone around us, and everyone around us just takes their cues from the people who tell us which cues we should be taking. Remember when we all used to wear hats?

WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!

It sucks to feel so manipulated. Some part of me hopes future startups won't take a lesson from this and figure out how to entirely manufacture enormous demand for an entirely arbitrary and unnecessary good entirely from scratch, and then control both demand and supply singlehandedly for almost a century. Well, unless I'm doing that. Then it'd be fucking awesome.

I tip my [nonexistent] hat to diamonds, but I will never buy one. It's cheaper to remain single and not have kids and die alone anyway. Thanks a lot for ruining my life, Startup Edition.


PS: Ahh, yes, the whole point of this post. Alex Godin, who is fucking awesome and you should totally check out read this and suggested that I add an actionable takeaway for a startup. I suppose I did gloss over that, didn't I?

I think there are a few takeaways to be learnt from this, for both startups and anyone who lives in a civilized society. We can take very real heed that it is indeed possible to entirely engineer a new desire, demand, thought, and belief so well that it seems an integral part of our culture and society. For people at large, I hope this makes us much more aware of why we believe the things we believe. I hope it makes us decide to critically examine what we believe, and decide for ourselves whether or not it is right we hold that belief or if we should discard it, and it was wrongly given to us (as seen here, in the case with diamonds).

For startups…while this seems like a grand undertaking and impossible to do with the bootstrapped resources of a tiny fledging company, it's important to realize that times have changed, and it's actually easier than ever to manipulate the media.

My great hope is that everyone uses this powerful knowledge for good, and doesn't just con the whole world into buying arbitrarily valued diamonds, but I suppose take it for what it is.

However, some part of me is deeply unsettled that De Beers was so grossly, enormously successful in this media manipulation undertaking, and I'm quite upset that it's the case, though I suppose it's likely the case for pretty much every 'fashion' and 'trend', so perhaps it's not that bad after all, and is the only way we come to value anything. I've always had a problem with wearing suits and ties, for instance. Why the hell do we do it? Why do we find this to be the proper attire in the business world, as opposed to a monk's robes or whatever the hell is most comfortable and functional for whatever situation? I have a big problem with arbitrary and 'customary, traditional' preferences superceding pure, objective functionality. But anyway.

So yes, while it may not be 'right' that it is this way, it is very possible that just as was the case with diamonds and De Beers, a startup can be fully capable of utilizing media manipulation to great effect and success. You just have to make people believe they're hearing it from someone else - someone that they trust and look up to. Just…try to do it with something that actually has real value, please :).

 
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Why People Live

This past week I learned that I have some incredible readers on this blog. No idea why you guys read this piece of shit. But I'm glad you do. Thanks.

As somewhat promised, here's a followup post to my Why Do You Live? post on Monday, featuring some of the fantastic responses from incredible readers.

First up, the fucking awesome Michelle Lara Lin, who I'm actually amazed I haven't met yet. How does everyone not know this ridiculously cool person already?

I can't admit I'm not biased in favoring this response because she's an absurdist too and runs a blog called The Stranger, because I am. But notwithstanding, she wrote a amazing post below interspersed with amazing pieces of artwork, so. Read it.

Hello Ben,

I've always loved reading your blog entries, but this Absurdist one was a delightful surprise. Camus is my favorite author. He turned my life around and gave me the strength to live and do all the things that I'd be afraid to do otherwise. So I am really excited to send you this email.

I wrote a long blog post called I'm scared of dying a long time ago. It was about overcoming the fear of death. It's a bit long, and I know you must be very busy. So in case you don't have the time to read it, I've prepared the TL;DR version:

Start:

I would think about death. I would be frightened over the thought that one day, my life would end… Everything that I worked for, everything that I built up would be gone. My life would be consummated without me, before my eyes, and ultimately, there would be nothing. Everything would disintegrate into this nothingness. That empty feeling, that nothingness, haunted me with sleepless nights and swollen eye bags. My parents were religious, and they offered it to me as a solace. My heart ached for a God. But I could never believe.

End:

I love life. And I do not believe that my life serves a purpose. I do not believe that my life has any meaning.

What do I live for? Why do I live?

I suppose I live to create and to fix things.

Creating: Nietzsche once wrote that we have art in order not to die of life. I think that is very true. Because in those moments when life becomes unbearable, you channel everything that is inconceivable, you channel all that emotional excess into art. I don't just mean conventional art (painting, sculptures… etc)– but even startups count too. Quotesome is the current “work of art” that I'm building.

Fixing things: I also see all these flaws with the world and I feel extremely itchy. I want to fix things. I can't stand that there are so many bad quote websites on the internet. I am outraged that women are still a flagrant minority in the tech world. I'm sick of double standards. I'm disappointed stigma surrounding mental illness. I can't sit around and accept things for the way they are. I am never content with the status quo. I really want to change the world.

Gaze your eyes upon Quotle, the adorable Quotesome Turtle. (I suspect that secretly everything Michelle said is bullshit and the real reason she gets up every day is to feed and cuddle with Quotle.)

LOOK AT IT.

Then go check out Quotesome, cause it's super cool.

Below is another fantastic response by Phillip Herndon, who wrote his own blog post in reply:

Hi Ben,

Your post on Svbtle the other day got me thinking. So much that I wrote something of my own

It's not a direct answer, but I play around with the question a bit. (It's a tough question!)

I definitely recommend checking out Man's Search for Meaning. It's stark, but optimistic in a way existentialism usually isn't.

Cheers,

Phill

I've been meaning to read MSM forever - this convinced me to up the priority on that. We pushed a bit back and forth here, and this is was my response:

I suppose the deeper question for me is always - why? In the absence of objective meaning, what justifies any subjective meaning we choose to have at any moment? For instance - why choose to be a teacher, or a student? It's generally a recursive question for me - whatever my answer is, I'll ask 'why' to that again. Ultimately, it seems we need to take something on its own merit as an axiom, and I've never discovered a satisfying enough axiom to base the meaning of my life on at any given moment.

And this was his great response to that:

Gotta push back on your why questions, though. If we start by agreeing that the universe is inherently absurd, it's kinda odd to hold ourselves to a different standard. Looking for moral axioms in an absurd world is a tough position to put yourself in!

You can look and see that generally people have a drive for meaning, as we have other drives. There's also a good argument, I think, that that meaning is not, cannot be, objective.

Asking why we choose one meaning rather than another is fruitless, though. As you point you we can always just ask why again. And any justification we come up with is likely to be post hoc.

We can go pretty deep with the whys, because humans are really good at dreaming up justifications and reasoning, but I don't think that means that all these things led to a decision. There's a lot of good work on social intuitionism, particularly some of Jon Haidt's stuff, that explores this a bit better than i could

I think that Frankl and Haidt might agree (going out on a limb here) that when picking a meaning in the moment the important thing is that it fits with your personal narrative and it satisfies your drive for meaning, not that it's an airtight axiom. After all, it can change as your experience with the world changes.

For some reason, that last bit about picking a meaning in the moment and having it fit with our personal narrative struck me particularly strongly, and actually persuaded me over to his line of thought and now I'm going to try to find that meaning that fits with my personal narrative right now. Thanks, man!

And then we've got a somewhat lighter answer (minus the immortality/making worlds bit) from my epic friend Jon Davis:

Yo Ben, responding to your blog post.

Most of my life goals, essentially the end game is to explore/create endlessly and get infinite enjoyment out of life.

Pre-living forever goals:

  • Find 5-6 close friends with similar goals and tackle life (or quick attack, aw yeah pokemon reference)
  • Learn 5-6 languages or effectively learn them all through technology.
  • Learn everyday
  • Make the world actively better is very significant ways.

and the big one, oh boy.

Live forever.

After living forever goals:

  • Master various strategy games, hopefully they involve multi-player VC worlds.
  • Create my own landscape, whether it be planets or virtual reality.
  • Adjust to do whatever you want, since you know, you live forever.

I guess the snippit would be to explore/create without end in every sense of those words. Or maybe just live forever and figure out the rest later :P

K, peace!

I love the bit about finding 5-6 close friends and tackling life together. Recalled to mind my reading about making our own tribes in Tony Hsieh's Delivering Happiness. Major kudos for that, and I'd love to make my own tribe.

Incidentally, Jon's looking for sweet peeps for his own hunting party of people, so if any of you guys seem to mesh unusually well with him, you should totally ping him up. He's a top 50 tournament poker player and pretty much kicks ass at life.

And to end since this is way long, here's an answer from France:

Hi Ben,

I have read your post with great interest..

I thought I could have something to share.

When I was about 16 years old I faced an existential crisis of sorts. I remember it very well. The night just before one of the final tests french pupils (sorry for my mediocre english, by the way) take at the end of highschool, I stayed awake several hours processing different things that had happened to me in the previous months, and wondered what was it all about… I had frequently wondered about “the meaning of life” before, but on that night I felt an urgent need to find a decent answer to that question.

At about 4 AM I decided it would be a good idea to fall asleep, and settled for a vague answer that let me unsatisfied: just try to leave to your children something “better” than what your parents left you, whatever the meaning of “better” may be. That was a somewhat darwinian, paternalistic idea.

In fact I simply wanted to “make the world better” though I disliked the apparent naiveness of that idea; doing it for my future children, and not for every future human being, sounded less vague. At times, I tried, without much hope to succeed to find a way to somehow quantify or rationalize things like welfare or happiness, because you can improve only what you can measure. I was bumping my head against a wall, and I knew it, but I wanted to give it a try.

But if life has no meaning, then why would your children care about what you leave to them? This reminds me of a post from Sergey Brin on Google +:

No place in the world has made me consider my place in the universe like Jellyfish Lake. Millions of creatures all drifting seemingly aimlessly, searching for light, for the energy to spawn so generations of their offspring may do the same years later. I take a small breath, sink toward the bottom, watching them in wonder and think are we really so different?

Of course nothing has any meaning at all, “meaning” is something our brain constructs.

With the theory of evolution and the big bang theory, any inquiry about the meaning of life will inevitably drift to the meaning of the universe and of the laws of physics. Why is there an universe? That's the super-size version of the “What's the meaning of life” question.

Perhaps this quest for objective meaning shows a part of us that likes to be told what to do, to follow a plan of action, to obey to an imperative.

Perhaps conscious beings are precisely what gives a (subjective) meaning to the universe, or different subjective meanings?

Ultimately there is no finality, nothing has any end. You can ace a test because it is built to be completed with respect to some metric - you can answer every question within time limits - but you will have “completed” it from only one point of view - you answered right every questions in time. Under another metric (say the number of correct answers divided by the amount of energy your brain consumed in the process, or just the time it took you to achieve your score) you can not say you've “completed” anything.

This reminds me of one of my favourite tweets from Neil DeGrasse Tyson:

“As the area covered by knowledge expands, so does the perimeter of ignorance.”

Everything we do just calls for doing more.

I've decided that I would be living mostly for experiences - entrepreneurship, creations of all sorts, leisures, travels. I want to have a great time.

I'm 22 now, and I hope I will be able to look back, in old age, and see my life as a story of continuous moral and intellectual improvement. Today the Internet allows one to witness the immensity of the world, in terms of both material and intellectual content. I try to fill my life with variety - variety of varieties: places, people, activities… And if I am lucky enough to make a large sum of money in the process,I would spend it to do something really cool, like building a libertarian settlement in Antarctic, or curing death.

Here is a quote I love from Francis Scott Fitzgerald:

“One should be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise.”

Huge fan of that post by Sergey Brin - major props for pointing that out. I want to go to Jellyfish Lake now.

Thanks y'all for the sweet responses.


Addendum: After publishing this, I woke up to find another email in my inbox, professing to be the counter to the 'positive' responses above. It's great to see a response from a somewhat jaded man who's already lived a good portion of life, in contrast with most of the perspectives published above.

Here's the honest albeit dark counter to the positive responses you mention in 'Why People Live'. As I can't be the only one with this mindset and/or experiences… please, if it'll help anyone, use it as you see fit.

Answering your 'Why?'

Because that's what you do.

I suspect your line of 'because we are alive now, and if we try not to think about it too hard, it's easier to just go along with the motions' nails it for most.

Even allowing for all the hopes and aspirations we nurture, it's a rut along which we glide or stumble for much of the time we're here when things aren't going to plan and we're not genuinely enjoying things.

Personally, as an overweight old man with glasses and no hair (currently working on a(nother) not-yet-launched startup - which this time I genuinely hope I'll stick with and/or not get sideswiped by divorce/ill-health or other external factors largely not of my doing and beyond my control), aware of a marked decline in physical and mental ability I'm trying to take care of some stuff I should have done years back but didn't and finally get myself onto a productive even course in which I earn enough to live sensibly and enjoy myself whilst being here to help family and appropriate others.

As a backstop, I find it's easier and less guilt-inducing than taking an early exit by suicide.

The backstory is simple…

In mid-99 a 19-year marriage imploded when my then-wife left unexpectedly and without notice. Having heartily thrown myself into and enjoyed 'being a family', the split removed nearly all perspective and meaning from my life… so much so that I totally failed to handle being sole parent to three teen kids and within months found myself briefly detained in a locked-door psych ward, taken there by police to prevent self-harm.

I shortly thereafter slotted into another relationship (it was welcoming to be wanted again), albeit one in which genuine mutual love wasn't enough to overcome often fiery incompatibility and after a turbulent 6-7 years it withered when the lady left the uk (that's where I'm based and we were living) to return to her native US to put her son through high school.

Because of a shortage of money and other things we each had to deal with in our respective families, plans to spend intermittent periods together were never actioned and we grew progressively distant. The formal end came in late 09 when I entirely accidentally was invited into a relationship with an attractive and lively lady 20 years younger than me. And again, it's not been smooth - despite great similarity in many areas, specific differences on one issue (her now-age-7 son) have been very problematic.

Whatever.

Amid all this, in recent years I've become jaded and frustrated through declining health (post-burnout chronic fatigue) which leaves me notably less-able to successfully pursue entrepreneurial ventures. The net effect is of adding to the frustrations of a life not-well-lived.

If I could go back and change things I would, but I can't and so I live with what I have and have done, trying to do what I still can to enrich (metaphorically and financially) the lives of my partner and family.

I've reached a point at which I now know that I'll never do some of the stuff I wanted to and perhaps genuinely still want to… even where desire remains the resolve has weakened. I'd be kidding myself if I genuinely thought I could meaningfully make the world better.

So yeah, I'm still working at getting things right even though I suspect I may not. I'm 'driven' (ha!) by a desire/need to serve those close to me and try to do something genuinely worthwhile which helps make the world a little better than had I simply sat back and thought 'fuck it!'.

And so, in my slightly-zen dotage I try to satisfy myself with 'do what you can with what you have to build this op right, earn enough to take care of those close to you', try to use whatever influence you have wisely to help foster wisdom and compassion in others, and enjoy the simple things.

Enough.

You asked, I answered.

Be happy, live well - it's a waste of a life not to.

Bye-bye.

;-)

I'd love to hear if this does 'help' or resonate with someone. Perhaps likeminded people can connect.


Further addendum: Apparently the responder above is a happy person after all! Good to hear.

A little postscript (if that's the right word)…

Hastily written and not reviewed or edited, as as written it might convey a wrong (and certainly incomplete) impression.

Overall, despite the obvious at-times downs expressed therein, I'm happy. I don't curse the sunrises and, in living a simple life, am quietly satisfied by being given more time here.

Ok, so an ongoing inability to sort my commercial matters leaves me short of the necessary money to cover food/essential expenses and a few frills, and frustratingly lowers my self-esteem. But things could be one helluva lot worse - and of course are for many many others.

Age and 'can't do that currently/any more' seems to bring other compensations, not the least of which is inner reflection as I tend to look back (and fondly remember) rather than forward (and dream/plan great moves). There's real enjoyment therein.

Sometimes I wish I was 25-35, and other times am glad I'm not. Perhaps obviously, 'life is what it is' and that's the how I live it, often sanguine although sometimes unreasonably melancholy.

And that's perhaps my one-liner point… it's not all good and it is ok to feel crap about stuff. Take the good with the bad and flow - enjoy the ups and try not to get to flattened by the downs. The time we get here isn't (or shouldn't) read like a triumph-over-adversity self-help tome.

As someone else once said… 'you gotta bleed a little while you sing, or the words don't mean a thing'.

Thanks.

 
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What do you live for?

As someone who subscribes to absurdism, this is something that has always fascinated me. This isn't so much an essay so much as just a question: what do you live for? Why do you live? I'd love to hear your thoughts, and you can email me at yu (at) benyu (dot) org. I may publish some responses anonymously if there is enough interest.

My thoughts on the matter can essentially be summed up as I see objective meaning in life to be highly improbable. If evolution is true, as it overwhelmingly seems it is, the long path to our creation was sparked without intention.

Something happened, the universe came to be, some dust gathered together and formed the sun and the planets, and somewhere on earth, somehow, abiogenesis occurred, and a couple billion years later eukaryotes came about, and another billion years after that fish and stuff emerged, and then eventually apes had lots of sex and we emerged as the result.

No reason behind it. So, taking that as a starting point, why do we choose to live? What is the end that makes the means (life and everything that comes with it) worthwhile?

Life is a hard thing. It's a lot of work, and at the end of it, we die*. After we die, there is presumably nothing, and so at face value there seems to be little difference in the end whether we die today or a thousand years from now, and also what we accomplish in that time.

Is it for the legacy we leave behind? The children that continue our story? But what matter is it to us now, now that we're dead and everything is beyond irrelevant? And what happens after humans are all gone from this earth? What is the point then?

Is it hope? Hope for humanity's future, hope for the truth of meaning, hope for an afterlife, hope that our lives are not in vain after all?

Is it sheer curiosity? The desire to see what comes next in humanity's ever-changing course?

Is it hedonistic desire? Our desire to maximize our happiness and pleasure? Evolution has gifted us emotions in the hard battle against extinction, and perhaps they are working as well now as ever.

Is it fear of death?

Or is it simply because we are alive now, and if we try not to think about it too hard, it's easier to just go along with the motions of life in the absence of any great impediment?

Something else? Please let me know; I'd love to hear it.

*Perhaps a tad ironic that this post comes immediately after a post on immortality, but hey, if we want to live forever, it'd probably be good to figure out why :).

 
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The Fable of the Dragon-Tyrant

This is long, be warned. But it is well worth it.

I didn't write this one, but I think it's extremely imperative the message here gets spread as far as possible. This was written by Nick Bostrom. I've posted my commentary at the bottom so as to not detract from the reading experience.

And so, without further ado, you can read this masterpiece here, or below:

Once upon a time, the planet was tyrannized by a giant dragon. The dragon stood taller than the largest cathedral, and it was covered with thick black scales. Its red eyes glowed with hate, and from its terrible jaws flowed an incessant stream of evil-smelling yellowish-green slime. It demanded from humankind a blood-curdling tribute: to satisfy its enormous appetite, ten thousand men and women had to be delivered every evening at the onset of dark to the foot of the mountain where the dragon-tyrant lived. Sometimes the dragon would devour these unfortunate souls upon arrival; sometimes again it would lock them up in the mountain where they would wither away for months or years before eventually being consumed.

The misery inflicted by the dragon-tyrant was incalculable. In addition to the ten thousand who were gruesomely slaughtered each day, there were the mothers, fathers, wives, husbands, children, and friends that were left behind to grieve the loss of their departed loved ones.

Some people tried to fight the dragon, but whether they were brave or foolish was difficult to say. Priests and magicians called down curses, to no avail. Warriors, armed with roaring courage and the best weapons the smiths could produce, attacked it, but were incinerated by its fire before coming close enough to strike. Chemists concocted toxic brews and tricked the dragon into swallowing them, but the only apparent effect was to further stimulate its appetite. The dragon’s claws, jaws, and fire were so effective, its scaly armor so impregnable, and its whole nature so robust, as to make it invincible to any human assault.

Seeing that defeating the tyrant was impossible, humans had no choice but to obey its commands and pay the grisly tribute. The fatalities selected were always elders. Although senior people were as vigorous and healthy as the young, and sometimes wiser, the thinking was that they had at least already enjoyed a few decades of life. The wealthy might gain a brief reprieve by bribing the press gangs that came to fetch them; but, by constitutional law, nobody, not even the king himself, could put off their turn indefinitely.

Spiritual men sought to comfort those who were afraid of being eaten by the dragon (which included almost everyone, although many denied it in public) by promising another life after death, a life that would be free from the dragon-scourge. Other orators argued that the dragon has its place in the natural order and a moral right to be fed. They said that it was part of the very meaning of being human to end up in the dragon’s stomach. Others still maintained that the dragon was good for the human species because it kept the population size down. To what extent these arguments convinced the worried souls is not known. Most people tried to cope by not thinking about the grim end that awaited them.

For many centuries this desperate state of affairs continued. Nobody kept count any longer of the cumulative death toll, nor of the number of tears shed by the bereft. Expectations had gradually adjusted and the dragon-tyrant had become a fact of life. In view of the evident futility of resistance, attempts to kill the dragon had ceased. Instead, efforts now focused on placating it. While the dragon would occasionally raid the cities, it was found that the punctual delivery to the mountain of its quota of life reduced the frequency of these incursions.

Knowing that their turn to become dragon-fodder was always impending, people began having children earlier and more often. It was not uncommon for a girl to be pregnant by her sixteenth birthday. Couples often spawned a dozen children. The human population was thus kept from shrinking, and the dragon was kept from going hungry.

Over the course of these centuries, the dragon, being well fed, slowly but steadily grew bigger. It had become almost as large as the mountain on which it lived. And its appetite had increased proportionately. Ten thousand human bodies were no longer enough to fill its belly. It now demanded eighty thousand, to be delivered to the foot of the mountain every evening at the onset of dark.

What occupied the king’s mind more than the deaths and the dragon itself was the logistics of collecting and transporting so many people to the mountain every day. This was not an easy task.

To facilitate the process, the king had a railway track constructed: two straight lines of glistening steel leading up to the dragon’s abode. Every twenty minutes, a train would arrive at the mountain terminal crammed with people, and would return empty. On moonlit nights, the passengers traveling on this train, if there had been windows for them to stick their heads out of, would have been able to see in front of them the double silhouette of the dragon and the mountain, and two glowing red eyes, like the beams from a pair of giant lighthouses, pointing the way to annihilation.

Servants were employed by the king in large numbers to administer the tribute. There were registrars who kept track of whose turn it was to be sent. There were people-collectors who would be dispatched in special carts to fetch the designated people. Often traveling at breakneck speed, they would rush their cargo either to a railway station or directly to the mountain. There were clerks who administered the pensions paid to the decimated families who were no longer able to support themselves. There were comforters who would travel with the doomed on their way to the dragon, trying to ease their anguish with spirits and drugs.

There was, moreover, a cadre of dragonologists who studied how these logistic processes could be made more efficient. Some dragonologists also conducted studies of the dragon’s physiology and behavior, and collected samples – its shed scales, the slime that drooled from its jaws, its lost teeth, and its excrements, which were specked with fragments of human bone. All these items were painstakingly annotated and archived. The more the beast was understood, the more the general perception of its invincibility was confirmed. Its black scales, in particular, were harder than any material known to man, and there seemed no way to make as much as a scratch in its armor.

To finance all these activities, the king levied heavy taxes on his people. Dragon-related expenditures, already accounting for one seventh of the economy, were growing even faster than the dragon itself.

Humanity is a curious species. Every once in a while, somebody gets a good idea. Others copy the idea, adding to it their own improvements. Over time, many wondrous tools and systems are developed. Some of these devices – calculators, thermometers, microscopes, and the glass vials that the chemists use to boil and distil liquids – serve to make it easier to generate and try out new ideas, including ideas that expedite the process of idea-generation.

Thus the great wheel of invention, which had turned at an almost imperceptibly slow pace in the older ages, gradually began to accelerate.

Sages predicted that a day would come when technology would enable humans to fly and do many other astonishing things. One of the sages, who was held in high esteem by some of the other sages but whose eccentric manners had made him a social outcast and recluse, went so far as to predict that technology would eventually make it possible to build a contraption that could kill the dragon-tyrant.

The king’s scholars, however, dismissed these ideas. They said that humans were far too heavy to fly and in any case lacked feathers. And as for the impossible notion that the dragon-tyrant could be killed, history books recounted hundreds of attempts to do just that, not one of which had been successful. “We all know that this man had some irresponsible ideas,” a scholar of letters later wrote in his obituary of the reclusive sage who had by then been sent off to be devoured by the beast whose demise he had foretold, “but his writings were quite entertaining and perhaps we should be grateful to the dragon for making possible the interesting genre of dragon-bashing literature which reveals so much about the culture of angst!”

Meanwhile, the wheel of invention kept turning. Mere decades later, humans did fly and accomplished many other astonishing things.

A few iconoclastic dragonologists began arguing for a new attack on the dragon-tyrant. Killing the dragon would not be easy, they said, but if some material could be invented that was harder than the dragon’s armor, and if this material could be fashioned into some kind of projectile, then maybe the feat would be possible. At first, the iconoclasts’ ideas were rejected by their dragonologist peers on grounds that no known material was harder than dragon scales. But after working on the problem for many years, one of the iconoclasts succeeded in demonstrating that a dragon scale could be pierced by an object made of a certain composite material. Many dragonologists who had previously been skeptical now joined the iconoclasts. Engineers calculated that a huge projectile could be made of this material and launched with sufficient force to penetrate the dragon’s armor. However, the manufacture of the needed quantity of the composite material would be expensive.

A group of several eminent engineers and dragonologists sent a petition to the king asking for funding to build the anti-dragon projectile. At time when the petition was sent, the king was preoccupied with leading his army into war against a tiger. The tiger had killed a farmer and subsequently disappeared into the jungle. There was widespread fear in the countryside that the tiger might come out and strike again. The king had the jungle surrounded and ordered his troops to begin slashing their way through it. At the conclusion of the campaign, the king could announce that all 163 tigers in the jungle, including presumably the murderous one, had been hunted down and killed. During the tumult of the war, however, the petition had been lost or forgotten.

The petitioners therefore sent another appeal. This time they received a reply from one of the king’s secretaries saying that the king would consider their request after he was done reviewing the annual dragon-administration budget. This year’s budget was the largest to date and included funding for a new railway track to the mountain. A second track was deemed necessary, as the original track could no longer support the increasing traffic. (The tribute demanded by the dragon-tyrant had increased to one hundred thousand human beings, to be delivered to the foot of the mountain every evening at the onset of dark.) When the budget was finally approved, however, reports were coming from a remote part of the country that a village was suffering from a rattlesnake infestation. The king had to leave urgently to mobilize his army and ride off to defeat this new threat. The anti-dragonists’ appeal was filed away in a dusty cabinet in the castle basement.

The anti-dragonists met again to decide what was to be done. The debate was animated and continued long into the night. It was almost daybreak when they finally resolved to take the matter to the people. Over the following weeks, they traveled around the country, gave public lectures, and explained their proposal to anyone who would listen. At first, people were skeptical. They had been taught in school that the dragon-tyrant was invincible and that the sacrifices it demanded had to be accepted as a fact of life. Yet when they learnt about the new composite material and about the designs for the projectile, many became intrigued. In increasing numbers, citizens flocked to the anti-dragonist lectures. Activists started organizing public rallies in support of the proposal.

When the king read about these meetings in the newspaper, he summoned his advisors and asked them what they thought about it. They informed him about the petitions that had been sent but told him that the anti-dragonists were troublemakers whose teachings were causing public unrest. It was much better for the social order, they said, that the people accepted the inevitability of the dragon-tyrant tribute. The dragon-administration provided many jobs that would be lost if the dragon was slaughtered. There was no known social good coming from the conquest of the dragon. In any case, the king’s coffers were currently nearly empty after the two military campaigns and the funding set aside for the second railway line. The king, who was at the time enjoying great popularity for having vanquished the rattlesnake infestation, listened to his advisors’ arguments but worried that he might lose some of his popular support if was seen to ignore the anti-dragonist petition. He therefore decided to hold an open hearing. Leading dragonologists, ministers of the state, and interested members of the public were invited to attend.

The meeting took place on the darkest day of the year, just before the Christmas holidays, in the largest hall of the royal castle. The hall was packed to the last seat and people were crowding in the aisles. The mood was charged with an earnest intensity normally reserved for pivotal wartime sessions.

After the king had welcomed everyone, he gave the floor to the leading scientist behind the anti-dragonist proposal, a woman with a serious, almost stern expression on her face. She proceeded to explain in clear language how the proposed device would work and how the requisite amount of the composite material could be manufactured. Given the requested amount of funding, it should be possible to complete the work in fifteen to twenty years. With an even greater amount of funding, it might be possible to do it in as little as twelve years. However, there could be no absolute guarantee that it would work. The crowd followed her presentation intently.

Next to speak was the king’s chief advisor for morality, a man with a booming voice that easily filled the auditorium:

“Let us grant that this woman is correct about the science and that the project is technologically possible, although I don’t think that has actually been proven. Now she desires that we get rid of the dragon. Presumably, she thinks she’s got the right not to be chewed up by the dragon. How willful and presumptuous. The finitude of human life is a blessing for every individual, whether he knows it or not. Getting rid of the dragon, which might seem like such a convenient thing to do, would undermine our human dignity. The preoccupation with killing the dragon will deflect us from realizing more fully the aspirations to which our lives naturally point, from living well rather than merely staying alive. It is debasing, yes debasing, for a person to want to continue his or her mediocre life for as long as possible without worrying about some of the higher questions about what life is to be used for. But I tell you, the nature of the dragon is to eat humans, and our own species-specified nature is truly and nobly fulfilled only by getting eaten by it…”

The audience listened respectfully to this highly decorated speaker. The phrases were so eloquent that it was hard to resist the feeling that some deep thoughts must lurk behind them, although nobody could quite grasp what they were. Surely, words coming from such a distinguished appointee of the king must have profound substance.

The speaker next in line was a spiritual sage who was widely respected for his kindness and gentleness as well as for his devotion. As he strode to the podium, a small boy yelled out from the audience: “The dragon is bad!”

The boy’s parents turned bright red and began hushing and scolding the child. But the sage said, “Let the boy speak. He is probably wiser than an old fool like me.”

At first, the boy was too scared and confused to move. But when he saw the genuinely friendly smile on the sage’s face and the outreached hand, he obediently took it and followed the sage up to the podium. “Now, there’s a brave little man,” said the sage. “Are you afraid of the dragon?“

“I want my granny back,” said the boy.

“Did the dragon take your granny away?”

“Yes,” the boy said, tears welling up in his large frightened eyes. “Granny promised that she would teach me how to bake gingerbread cookies for Christmas. She said that we would make a little house out of gingerbread and little gingerbread men that would live in it. Then those people in white clothes came and took Granny away to the dragon… The dragon is bad and it eats people… I want my Granny back!”

At this point the child was crying so hard that the sage had to return him to his parents.

There were several other speakers that evening, but the child’s simple testimony had punctured the rhetorical balloon that the king’s ministers had tried to inflate. The people were backing the anti-dragonists, and by the end of the evening even the king had come to recognize the reason and the humanity of their cause. In his closing statement, he simply said: “Let’s do it!”

As the news spread, celebrations erupted in the streets. Those who had been campaigning for the anti-dragonists toasted each other and drank to the future of humanity.

The next morning, a billion people woke up and realized that their turn to be sent to the dragon would come before the projectile would be completed. A tipping point was reached. Whereas before, active support for the anti-dragonist cause had been limited to a small group of visionaries, it now became the number one priority and concern on everybody’s mind. The abstract notion of “the general will” took on an almost tangible intensity and concreteness. Mass rallies raised money for the projectile project and urged the king to increase the level of state support. The king responded to these appeals. In his New Year address, he announced that he would pass an extra appropriations bill to support the project at a high level of funding; additionally, he would sell off his summer castle and some of his land and make a large personal donation. “I believe that this nation should commit itself to achieving the goal, before this decade is out, of freeing the world from the ancient scourge of the dragon-tyrant.”

Thus started a great technological race against time. The concept of an anti-dragon projectile was simple, but to make it a reality required solutions to a thousand smaller technical problems, each of which required dozens of time-consuming steps and missteps. Test-missiles were fired but fell dead to the ground or flew off in the wrong direction. In one tragic accident, a wayward missile landed on a hospital and killed several hundred patients and staff. But there was now a real seriousness of purpose, and the tests continued even as the corpses were being dug out from the debris.

Despite almost unlimited funding and round-the-clock work by the technicians, the king’s deadline could not be met. The decade concluded and the dragon was still alive and well. But the effort was getting closer. A prototype missile had been successfully test fired. Production of the core, made of the expensive composite material, was on schedule for its completion to coincide with the finishing of the fully tested and debugged missile shell into which it was to be loaded. The launch date was set to the following year’s New Year’s Eve, exactly twelve years after the project’s official inauguration. The best-selling Christmas gift that year was a calendar that counted down the days to time zero, the proceeds going to the projectile project.

The king had undergone a personal transformation from his earlier frivolous and thoughtless self. He now spent as much time as he could in the laboratories and the manufacturing plants, encouraging the workers and praising their toil. Sometimes he would bring a sleeping bag and spend the night on a noisy machine floor. He even studied and tried to understand the technical aspects of their work. Yet he confined himself to giving moral support and refrained from meddling in technical and managerial matters.

Seven days before New Year, the woman who had made the case for the project almost twelve years earlier, and was now its chief executive, came to the royal castle and requested an urgent audience with the king. When the king got her note, he excused himself to the foreign dignitaries whom he was reluctantly entertaining at the annual Christmas dinner and hurried off to the private room where the scientist was waiting. As always of late, she looked pale and worn from her long working hours. This evening, however, the king also thought he could detect a ray of relief and satisfaction in her eyes.

She told him that the missile had been deployed, the core had been loaded, everything had been triple-checked, they were ready to launch, and would the king give his final go-ahead. The king sank down in an armchair and closed his eyes. He was thinking hard. By launching the projectile tonight, one week early, seven hundred thousand people would be saved. Yet if something went wrong, if it missed its target and hit the mountain instead, it would be a disaster. A new core would have to be constructed from scratch and the project would be set back by some four years. He sat there, silently, for almost an hour. Just as the scientist had become convinced that he had fallen asleep, he opened his eyes and said in a firm voice: “No. I want you to go right back to the lab. I want you to check and then re-check everything again.” The scientist could not help a sigh escaping her; but she nodded and left.

The last day of the year was cold and overcast, but there was no wind, which meant good launch conditions. The sun was setting. Technicians were scuttling around making the final adjustments and giving everything one last check. The king and his closest advisors were observing from a platform close to the launch pad. Further away, behind a fence, large numbers of the public had assembled to witness the great event. A large clock was showing the countdown: fifty minutes to go.

An advisor tapped the king on the shoulder and drew his attention to the fence. There was some tumult. Somebody had apparently jumped the fence and was running towards the platform where the king sat. Security quickly caught up with him. He was handcuffed and taken away. The king turned his attention back to the launch pad, and to the mountain in the background. In front of it, he could see the dark slumped profile of the dragon. It was eating.

Some twenty minutes later, the king was surprised to see the handcuffed man reappearing a short distance from the platform. His nose was bleeding and he was accompanied by two security guards. The man appeared to be in frenzied state. When he spotted the king, he began shouting at the top of his lungs: “The last train! The last train! Stop the last train!”

“Who is this young man?” said the king. “His face seems familiar, but I cannot quite place him. What does he want? Let him come up.”

The young man was a junior clerk in the ministry of transportation, and the reason for his frenzy was that he had discovered that his father was on the last train to the mountain. The king had ordered the train traffic to continue, fearing that any disruption might cause the dragon to stir and leave the open field in front of the mountain where it now spent most of its time. The young man begged the king to issue a recall-order for the last train, which was due to arrive at the mountain terminal five minutes before time zero.

“I cannot do it,” said the king, “I cannot take the risk.”

“But the trains frequently run five minutes late. The dragon won’t notice! Please!”

The young man was kneeling before the king, imploring him to save his father’s life and the lives of the other thousand passengers onboard that last train.

The king looked down at the pleading, bloodied face of the young man. But he bit his lip, and shook his head. The young man continued to wail even as the guards carried him off the platform: “Please! Stop the last train! Please!”

The king stood silent and motionless, until, after while, the wailing suddenly ceased. The king looked up and glanced over at the countdown clock: five minutes remaining.

Four minutes. Three minutes. Two minutes.

The last technician left the launch pad.

30 seconds. 20 seconds. Ten, nine, eight…

As a ball of fire enveloped the launch pad and the missile shot out, the spectators instinctively rose to the tips of their toes, and all eyes fixated at the front end of the white flame from the rocket’s afterburners heading towards the distant mountain. The masses, the king, the low and the high, the young and the old, it was as if at this moment they shared a single awareness, a single conscious experience: that white flame, shooting into the dark, embodying the human spirit, its fear and its hope… striking at the heart of evil. The silhouette on the horizon tumbled, and fell. Thousand voices of pure joy rose from the assembled masses, joined seconds later by a deafening drawn-out thud from the collapsing monster as if the Earth itself was drawing a sigh of relief. After centuries of oppression, humanity at last was free from the cruel tyranny of the dragon.

The joy cry resolved into a jubilating chant: “Long live the king! Long live us all!” The king’s advisors, like everybody that night, were as happy as children; they embraced each other and congratulated the king: “We did it! We did it!”

But the king answered in a broken voice: “Yes, we did it, we killed the dragon today. But damn, why did we start so late? This could have been done five, maybe ten years ago! Millions of people wouldn’t have had to die.”

The king stepped off the platform and walked up to the young man in handcuffs, who was sitting on the ground. There he fell down on his knees. “Forgive me! Oh my God, please forgive me!”

The rain started falling, in large, heavy drops, turning the ground into mud, drenching the king’s purple robes, and dissolving the blood on the young man’s face. “I am so very sorry about your father,” said the king.

“It’s not your fault,” replied the young man. “Do you remember twelve years ago in the castle? That crying little boy who wanted you to bring back his grandmother – that was me. I didn’t realize then that you couldn’t possibly do what I asked for. Today I wanted you to save my father. Yet it was impossible to do that now, without jeopardizing the launch. But you have saved my life, and my mother and my sister. How can we ever thank you enough for that?”

“Listen to them,” said the king, gesturing towards the crowds. “They are cheering me for what happened tonight. But the hero is you. You cried out. You rallied us against evil.” The king signaled a guard to come and unlock the handcuffs. “Now, go to your mother and sister. You and your family shall always be welcome at the court, and anything you wish for – if it be within my power – shall be granted.”

The young man left, and the royal entourage, huddling in the downpour, accumulated around their monarch who was still kneeling in the mud. Amongst the fancy couture, which was being increasingly ruined by the rain, a bunch of powdered faces expressed a superposition of joy, relief, and discombobulation. So much had changed in the last hour: the right to an open future had been regained, a primordial fear had been abolished, and many a long-held assumption had been overturned. Unsure now about what was required of them in this unfamiliar situation, they stood there tentatively, as if probing whether the ground would still hold, exchanging glances, and waiting for some kind of indication.

Finally, the king rose, wiping his hands on the sides of his pants.

“Your majesty, what do we do now?” ventured the most senior courtier.

“My dear friends,” said the king, “we have come a long way… yet our journey has only just begun. Our species is young on this planet. Today we are like children again. The future lies open before us. We shall go into this future and try to do better than we have done in the past. We have time now – time to get things right, time to grow up, time to learn from our mistakes, time for the slow process of building a better world, and time to get settled in it. Tonight, let all the bells in the kingdom ring until midnight, in remembrance of our dead forbears, and then after midnight let us celebrate till the sun comes up. And in the coming days… I believe we have some reorganization to do!”


MORAL

Stories about aging have traditionally focused on the need for graceful accommodation. The recommended solution to diminishing vigor and impending death was resignation coupled with an effort to achieve closure in practical affairs and personal relationships. Given that nothing could be done to prevent or retard aging, this focus made sense. Rather than fretting about the inevitable, one could aim for peace of mind.

Today we face a different situation. While we still lack effective and acceptable means for slowing the aging process, we can identify research directions that might lead to the development of such means in the foreseeable future. “Deathist” stories and ideologies, which counsel passive acceptance, are no longer harmless sources of consolation. They are fatal barriers to urgently needed action.

Many distinguished technologists and scientists tell us that it will become possible to retard, and eventually to halt and reverse, human senescence. At present, there is little agreement about the time-scale or the specific means, nor is there a consensus that the goal is even achievable in principle. In relation to the fable (where aging is, of course, represented by the dragon), we are therefore at a stage somewhere between that at which the lone sage predicted the dragon’s eventual demise and that at which the iconoclast dragonologists convinced their peers by demonstrating a composite material that was harder than dragon scales.

The ethical argument that the fable presents is simple: There are obvious and compelling moral reasons for the people in the fable to get rid of the dragon. Our situation with regard to human senescence is closely analogous and ethically isomorphic to the situation of the people in the fable with regard to the dragon. Therefore, we have compelling moral reasons to get rid of human senescence.

The argument is not in favor or life-span extension per se. Adding extra years of sickness and debility at the end of life would be pointless. The argument is in favor of extending, as far as possible, the human health-span. By slowing or halting the aging process, the healthy human life span would be extended. Individuals would be able to remain healthy, vigorous, and productive at ages at which they would otherwise be dead.

In addition to this general moral, there are a number of more specific lessons:

(1) A recurrent tragedy became a fact of life, a statistic. In the fable, people’s expectations adapted to the existence of the dragon, to the extent that many became unable to perceive its badness. Aging, too, has become a mere “fact of life” – despite being the principal cause of an unfathomable amount of human suffering and death.

(2) A static view of technology. People reasoned that it would never become possible to kill the dragon because all attempts had failed in the past. They failed to take into account accelerated technological progress. Is a similar mistake leading us to underestimate the chances of a cure for aging?

(3) Administration became its own purpose. One seventh of the economy went to dragon-administration (which is also the fraction of its GDP that the U.S. spends on healthcare). Damage-limitation became such an exclusive focus that it made people neglect the underlying cause. Instead of a massive publicly-funded research program to halt aging, we spend almost our entire health budget on health-care and on researching individual diseases.

(4) The social good became detached from the good for people. The king’s advisors worried about the possible social problems that could be caused by the anti-dragonists. They said that no known social good would come from the demise of the dragon. Ultimately, however, social orders exist for the benefit of people, and it is generally good for people if their lives are saved.

(5) The lack of a sense of proportion. A tiger killed a farmer. A rhumba of rattlesnakes plagued a village. The king got rid of the tiger and the rattlesnakes, and thereby did his people a service. Yet he was at fault, because he got his priorities wrong.

(6) Fine phrases and hollow rhetoric. The king’s morality advisor spoke eloquently about human dignity and our species-specified nature, in phrases lifted, mostly verbatim, from the advisor’s contemporary equivalents. Yet the rhetoric was a smoke screen that hid rather than revealed moral reality. The boy’s inarticulate but honest testimony, by contrast, points to the central fact of the case: the dragon is bad; it destroys people. This is also the basic truth about human senescence.

(7) Failure to appreciate the urgency. Until very late in the story, nobody fully realized what was at stake. Only as the king was staring into the bloodied face of the young pleading man does the extent of the tragedy sink in. Searching for a cure for aging is not just a nice thing that we should perhaps one day get around to. It is an urgent, screaming moral imperative. The sooner we start a focused research program, the sooner we will get results. It matters if we get the cure in 25 years rather than in 24 years: a population greater than that of Canada would die as a result. In this matter, time equals life, at a rate of approximately 70 lives per minute. With the meter ticking at such a furious rate, we should stop faffing about.

(8) “And in the coming days… I believe we have some reorganization to do!” The king and his people will face some major challenges when they recover from their celebration. Their society has been so conditioned and deformed by the presence of the dragon that a frightening void now exists. They will have to work creatively, on both an individual and a societal level, to develop conditions that will keep lives flourishingly dynamic and meaningful beyond the accustomed three-score-years-and-ten. Luckily, the human spirit is good at adapting. Another issue that they may eventually confront is overpopulation. Maybe people will have to learn to have children later and less frequently. Maybe they can find ways to sustain a larger population by using more efficient technology. Maybe they will one day develop spaceships and begin to colonize the cosmos. We can leave, for now, the long-lived fable people to grapple with these new challenges, while we try to make some progress in our own adventure.

In recent times, I haven't spoken much about the anti-aging movement, but this is actually my first life goal: to see anti-aging to its fruition, and propel it there however I can. I'll likely throw up another post about this in the future, but I agree wholeheartedly with the picture Bostrom paints here - just as with the dragon tyrant, aging is something we need to urgently be working to defeat right now.

For the first time in human history, we're at a point where it's feasible we can find real solutions to parts of the aging dilemma in the near future. As we piece these together and refine our advances, perhaps we'll hit the longevity escape velocity and we'll all be saved :).

My ideal world would incorporate both indefinite lifespan and some form of save and reload functionality so we can go off and do crazy shit and try again if it fails horribly, so I'm roughly 50/50 on biological and technological approaches to this problem. That's primarily because I'm much more ignorant than I should be right now, as while this is my first life goal, I'm moving about it in a bit of a nonlinear fashion, for reasons I'm a tad reluctant to explain, as I myself am uncertain that things will work out exactly the way I'm hoping they will, and so would prefer to bite my tongue and speak in hindsight rather than assert my ludicrosity just yet.

To end, I'll just say that from personal experience many of the people I speak with on this subject give either a general skepticism of the idea or suggest that a world without death would be undesirable, for whatever reasons. Both of these issues are addressed in the fable above, but here I'd just like to note that there has been nothing in humanity's history to suggest that the way things are are the way they will always be. In fact, our very existence over time has been a testament to how wrong that belief is.

From our sheer evolution from more primitive life forms to our mastery over basic tools and ultimately through rudimentary civilization and manipulation of our environment onwards, in retrospect our pedigree for groundbreaking innovation, invention, and progress is frankly unbelievable, in a quite literal sense of the word. If it hadn't yet happened, and some random guy came up to me two thousand years ago and tried to describe the world in the 21st century, I literally wouldn't be able to comprehend half the crazy shit he'd be talking about. It wouldn't be in the realm of fantasy - it would be in the realm of literally inconceivable fantasy. How would he ever describe to me electricity, radar, atomic bombs, guns, the internet, cell phones, lasers, x-rays, automobiles, robots, DNA, viruses, cells, the brain, or any of the other countless things we now take for granted?

And so far from thinking that the achievement of indefinite lifespan is impossibly foolish and ridiculous, I think it's in fact foolish and ridiculous to dismiss the possibility that we may very well find ourselves one day in a world where the very notion of death is foreign, just as the notion of a world without electricity and internet are foreign to much of the world being born today.

Aging is a purely physical, biological process - there's nothing intangible or immutable about it. It is just like any other disease or illness - it has a clear-cut mode of action, and while it may not yet be clear to us, just as once polio and other viruses were not clear to us, there is nothing to suggest that it one day won't be understood by us at least to the extent that we're able to actively combat and circumvent it.

In fact, some of the greatest problems facing humanity right now may better be seen as symptoms of aging, or at least caused by the same root factors that cause aging. Cancer, cardiovascular disease, Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, osteoporosis, arthritis - the list goes on - all of these diseases have risk profiles that increase drastically with age. Instead of fixating on solving these symptoms, it's quite likely our time could much better be spent attempting to fight the root causes of aging, which very well may preclude much of these symptomatic diseases.

Thus, in conclusion: it is of the utmost importance that we are all very aware of this dragon-tyrant ever present in our lives, who threatens to without fail, one by one, scoop up our loved ones before finally one day coming for us. We must be aware of this dragon, and we must too be very careful of resigning ourselves to our seemingly inevitable fate. There is a resistance going on, and we do have a chance. But that chance won't actualize itself without our help - we must actively take up arms and fight the dragon-tyrant, and we must do so now, for the sooner we begin this war in earnest, the sooner we can win it.

 
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Enjoy it above all

This is another cautionary post, inspired yet again by one of Tynan's recent entries (sorry for hating on you so much man).

The desire for progress is one of my deepest core motivators. Generally, I try to improve in everything I do, and running is no different.

I started running in high school as part of cross country. That was easy. Every day, the coach told me where I had to be, and what I had to do when I got there. There was no choice. It was mindless, and it worked. I went from never having run in my life to actually beating real, live humans in races. My chronic sleep deprivation during the school year limited my progression, but the improvement was still remarkable.

But the joyous day finally came when school let out forever, and I found myself having to face the prospect of running on my own. Suddenly, everything was different. No one was going to tell me when to run and how to run anymore. No one was going to force me to run - I'd have to procure the motivation to run entirely on my own.

At first, this was all well and good, as I'd been in the habit of running for so long that it wasn't difficult at all to keep it up. The fact that I invariably started to - and still do - feel fat and sluggish after a few days without a good run also helped.

And so I paid no attention to structuring my running in a way that would maximize my motivation to keep up the habit, and instead focused on trying to continue a trend of improvement and progress. This culminated in the same kind of 'sprint to the finish line' philosophy espoused by Tynan, where I felt every run hadn't reached its full potential if I wasn't utterly and completely exhausted at the end of the run, and was consequently a bit wasted.

Hence, I took to invariably pushing myself at the end of every run on the final stretch, forcing myself to steadily increase my pace until I broke into a full-out sprint, just as I would in a race. This definitely had the intended effect, and I ended every run completely winded and gasping for breath. It wasn't very enjoyable much at all, but at least I had the satisfaction of knowing I ran as much as I could.

This went on for a few months before I started to realize something strange was happening. It seemed like I was running progressively less and less over time. I did a bit of introspection and came to the startling realization that I was starting to dread running - I dreaded even starting a run because I knew it would inevitably end in utter exhaustion and pain, and so I consistently put off ever starting a run.

So this is the story of how my trying to maximize the gains from my runs by running to painful exhaustion ultimately backfired, and my consequently significantly reduced running made me lose far more ground than my little end-run sprints ever gained.

I have no idea if this holds true for everyone, but I learned something very valuable for myself. Maximizing my enjoyment of an activity, and consequently my motivation to engage in the activity, is first and foremost crucial to my success and progress in said activity. I've since eliminated final stretch sprints on every run, and am now happily running three times a week without fail, thanks in part to my structured habits and in part to the sheer enjoyment I now derive from each run.

 
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The sweet spot of productivity

This is a bit of a response to Tynan's post on Removing Options, where he's recently installed Nanny for Chrome and has blocked every single website on the internet except about ten that he needs for work so that he can focus on getting work done.

While he's raving about this now having only done it for a few days, personal experience suggests that this is unsustainable. Inevitably, something will come up where you'll need to use another website for something - say, watching a really compelling and informative TED video, learning something on Khan Academy, checking out a great dissection of a startup/entrepreneurial lesson on some random dude's blog - whatever, something will come up.

And once something so compelling comes up that it's necessary to visit the site to peruse the content, the only option left is to disable Nanny across the board to visit that one site. That first time, we'll probably put Nanny right back to work and everything will be alright again, but sooner or later the situation will resurface, we'll rinse and repeat, and before long it becomes a regular occurrence, and perhaps later at some point we simply don't bother to put Nanny back on, since it's such a damn hassle and clearly isn't working.

I give Tynan longer than most people because he's fucking crazy and also really good at being productive, but I bet he caves in within three months at the most as this just isn't sustainable (I'd give the average person less than two weeks so this speaks pretty highly of Tynan).

I tried this myself with StayFocusd for Chrome, and at first was just as gungho about it and put up the nuclear option which pretty much disabled everything, but before long I caved in and then forgot about it for years.

About two years ago, driven by insane loss of productivity by reading sites like Hacker News and Facebook, I was compelled to revisit StayFocusd, but this time wiser with a compromise in mind. I'd play the Pareto principle and just block the 20% of sites that were doing 80% of the damage. And even then, since those sites are inevitably necessary and compelling every now and then, I wouldn't block them completely - I gave myself a 25 minute daily allowance on the sites across the board, meaning that every day, I'd have 25 minutes total to devote to checking Hacker News, Facebook, Reddit, Slickdeals, Flyertalk, etc.

This proved to work incredibly well for me and I've kept it up without fail for the entire two years (there are certain occasions where I do need to use the sites for a longer period of time - say, to send a very long FB message, and then I'll generally open up a new web browser like Firefox to do the deed, but that's enough of a hassle to preclude me from always resorting to that option without real need) and I now view my time on those sites with extreme awareness of my limited time and am much less likely to get sidetracked/waste time endlessly following hyperlinks into oblivion. It's focused, in and out, and I cut out all the crap I don't really need to see while still managing to see the most intriguing articles/etc. on places like HN.

Over time, I've developed a much reduced reliance/need for sites like Facebook and HN in my life. I'm much more focused, and I haven't been up to date on recent news in about two years now. It was literally a surprise when the election happened last year. I think I actually realized there was an election going on sometime in October. And guess what? My life isn't negatively impacted by this ignorance at all - in fact, I'm infinitely more content with my quality of life now than before.

And this is all, interestingly enough, thanks to my limited allowance of freedom to explore such diversions, as I'm inevitably compelled to engage in one of these diversions every now and then. Were I to block the sites outright, I'm fairly certain this wouldn't work for me (although it works for some - Leo from zenhabits has been off Facebook for quite some time now, though he still engages in G+ ;).

This isn't to say going cold turkey on something isn't the right decision in any situation - I decided to cut games and TV shows out of my life forever and I'm still going easily strong on that after 114 days (despite being a rampant rabid avid gamer in my past - I've devoured entire summers doing nothing but sitting in my underwear and playing Total Annihilation and Baldur's Gate). This is to say that perhaps everyone has a different limit of compulsion on certain things - and while some people can go cold turkey on some things, others might find slight compromise to be a much more productive option.

Though my money's still on Tynan failing this. Fifty dollars to be exact, if he takes my bet.

 
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Collaborative Writing, Etherpad, and FTL Fanfiction

I was talking with Ryan Hoover the other day and he mentioned if I'd ever considered collaborative writing, with a tool such as Etherpad.

I hadn't, but it sounded like fun, so I ended up staying up all night with my buddy Travis writing the following piece of FTL fanfiction. I've sworn off games and have been clean for 110 days, but he's still an addict and raved about this rogue-like and it sounded like fun, so we did it.

Surprising discoveries

Collaborative writing did not actually turn into the shitshow I was certain it would. It worked remarkably well. Neither of us would have written this piece on our own - it was about 2am when we got started, and Travis was pretty much ready to hit the sack, but thanks to peer pressure I got him to stay on board. And at about 5am or so, I was ready to crash, but he carried us through to the end.

We also wrote much more than either of us would have written on our own. At times I could even be finishing off one train of thought and he could already be writing the response at the exact same time.

And ultimately, it was fun. It was more like playing a game than anything else, really. We played around with different colors, with multiple trains of thought, and the social aspect of the writing really made the process of writing immensely enjoyable in its own right. We had to constantly be mentally engaged and aware of where the other person was going and sync up.

Overall - highly recommended. You can try out Etherpad here.

And below is the piece of FTL fanfiction we managed to throw together. Here's a link to our Etherpad file, where you can see how the writing came together.

Captains Log - Tach

When reality returned to us, we were in the middle of a nebula. Sensors, as little good they did us, still showed a warp beacon, so we weren't too badly adrift, and at least no one was shooting at us. After a moment of disorientation, and now that I knew the Osprey wasn't going to be torn to bits with beam weapons, I remembered that the engine room was on fire. I grabbed an extinguisher unit and opened the door to find Mallot fighting to keep the inferno under control. Mallot was a mercenary we had picked up a couple of sectors ago, and had been a mechanic in his youth. He had kept the engines running after Scoops died. As we put out the fire, a loud pounding on the starboard door to the engine room.

I looked at Mallot and gulped. “The boarders are still alive?” Frankly, I wasn't sure how the starboard engine was still attached, with fires and hull breaches all along that side. I thought back to that argument I had lost with Skyler, the long haired, blue eyed first mate who had rescued me from a life of slave. She had led me out of the storage hold with her frightening Mantis friend, stepping over the bodies of my captors before we had beamed back aboard her ship. The captain, Travers, was killed by boarders shortly after, but not before offering me a spot on the crew. I will never forget her; she was killed instantly when we were ambushed at that last fleet beacon, torpedoes exploding on our shield generator. Skyler had demanded we stay at some backwater planet an extra day, even with the Rebel fleet right behind us, to upgrade our door system to blast doors. Everyone but she and Captain Travers thought this idea was stupid, and the captain later confided that he thought the idea was stupid too, he was just smart enough not to pick a fight with his strong headed first mate over this. And losing that argument had probably saved my and Mallot's lives.

Cremity, if he was even still alive, hadn't managed to get shields back on line.

“Judging by that pounding, I'm going to have to go with yes.” Mallot replied.

“Shit.” I said. The door wouldn't hold them back forever. I started racking my brain for a way out of this mess. “You have your gun?” I asked.

“It's on the bow.” Mallot grunted in an extreme display of unhelpfulness, “ We left all our rifles in the weapon's bridge.” Past the shield generator. Which had at least two gaping holes in it which Cremity, likely being dead, likely has not repaired yet.

“Great, that helps a lot.” I pause, and tell my brain to rack some more to compensate for Mallot's unhelpfulness. “Wait. I have an idea. Can you reach the life support systems?”

“Sure. Through that door.” Mallot jerked his tumb to the starboard door, which was still being vigorously pounded on. A troubled mechanical whirring sound joined the pounding.

“Fuck. Can you climb through the vents?” I asked as a desperate last resort.

Mallot stared at me incredulously. “Are you fucking serious? How about you climb through the vents?”

“I need to be here, can you work a Federation Crusier?”

“Fuck you. I'm not climbing through the vents.” Mallot said adamantly.

“I need to be at the door controls to vent the Oxygen.” I said.

It may have had something to do with the fact I had been captain for approximately fifteen minutes, but this did not go over well.

I sighed. It looked like there was only one option left, and that wasn't really an option I wanted to consider.

“I guess wll have to go through the north door.”

“And if that's on fire too? Our teleporter was taken out, that whole wing could be a blazing inferno, or worse.” Fire and a lack of oxygen was what killed Skyler. Well, that and the fact that missles hit her room and made it explode.

“We'll just have to take that chance.” Mallot sneered.

“Fuck you, you're saying that because you're the one staying in the cockpit.” I have to admit, he may have had a point. But I wasn't going to go and ruin his morale by saying that.

“Look, if you don't go, we're both going to end up dead here. Unless you think you can fight off an armed Mantis with your bare hands? You ever see Jiggers get his claws on a person? Or how many bloody parts that person finds themself in afterwards? Look, if you die, just remember that I'm not long coming after you.”

“Why, pray tell, does it matter that I get to the life support?”

“I need you to turn it off.”

This most probably had something to do with me being a captain for only seventeen minutes. This did not go over well either.

Silence. For once, Mallot actually didn't have a smartass response prepared.

“Wait, what did you say?”

“I need you to turn off the life support so we can flush the aliens out of the system. It's the only way. They have us surrounded, they have us outnumbered, they have us outgunned. We need to shut down the ship so we have a fighting chance.”

“This ship is falling apart. What if we can't turn it back on?”

“Then I promise that if it makes you feel better, you can shoot me instead of the Mantis.”

“So let me get this straight. You're expecting me to run out the north gate, run through fucking fires and leaks and god knows what else, get to the oxygen room, which may or may not be full of aliens monsters, turn off the life support, and then freeze my ass to death when the ship starts breathing? So basically, you want me to sacrifice myself to save your ass while you sit here and twiddle your thumbs?”

“You've have at least ninety seconds to get back to the cockpit, we'll hole up there, that's two doors they have to break down before they can get to us.”

Just then, there was a pathetic whirring sound. It was as if a system was trying to come back online, but instead had felt it wasn't worth the effort. A panel to the side of the room (maybe this should be in the cockpit?) flickered to life; showing the ship, lifesigns, and damage readouts. The port engine and crew teleport were torn to shreds, but the north pasage was thankfully clear of fire and other hazards. Unthankfully, to the south there were a disheartening number of life forms.

Mallot and I looked at each other. This was my chance, and I seized it.

“Look at that. This is our chance - you can get through the north gate and to the O2 room, but we're running out of time. It's either that or fight all those aliens. What is it?” I say, looking at the sensor overlay. “Six Mantises? Seven? Have fun with that.”

For a moment, I thought Mallot was going to kill me and spare us the trouble of figuring all this out. But then his shoulders sagged, he looked at the north door, and resigned himself to his fate.

“Alright Tach, fine. I'll do it. But if I die, my ghost is going to fucking haunt your ghost for the rest of fucking eternity. Remember that.” And with a deep breath, Mallot walked to the north door, opened it, and sprinted into oblivion. I clenched my fists and prayed.

A voice buzzed over the intercom. “Intruders on deck. Suggest strategic course of action. Likelihood of dying in direct combat is seven hundred fourteen to one.” Cremity said in a calm, reassuring voice. I hated him at that moment. More lights flickered as the weapons bay started to come online. Not that it would do any good.

There was nothing for me to do but wait. I looked at the south door. The pounding had increased in intensity, but the work was done by a careful and steady hand. The sound might have been calming if it wasn't trying to kill me. I walked over the the control panel for the doors. The second Mallot managed to turn off the life support - if Mallot managed to turn off the life support - I would….a slight hissing noise could be heard, and the overhead lights went out. I watched the red dot representing Mallot run through the door control system and through the north passasge, closing the doors behind him. When I heard his foot hit the floor of the engine room, I opened all the doors on the stern half of the ship, venting precious oxygen out, with the exeption of the engine room, which I locked. Mallot took a moment, used his elbow to bust open a first aid kit, taking out a blanket. He ran into the cockpit, and I closed the door behind us, hoping it would hold. Mallot cut the blanket in half with his knife, throwing the smaller result at me. “I'm sure as hell not cuddling with you if we're going to freeze to death. I'd rather die than take the risk of being frozen for eternity with you holding me in your arms.”

The pounding was fainter through both barriers. And it was no longer calm and steady. It was frantic. The fucking Artificial Gravity, which I had no idea how to manipulate, would keep the O2 in the ship precious seconds longer. Seconds passed. There was a loud clattering noise, and the sound of many, too many scrambling feet. Another moment, and the pounding was at the cockpit door. Mallot and I looked at each other. I secretly hoped he might renege on his no cuddling rule and hold me in our last moments alive. And there was a deafening boom, and the door visibly dented inward in the rough outline of a Mantis. I prepared to make my peace with the world and tried not to think about being torn to a million pieces by a very, very pissed off Mantis.

After what seemed like an eternity, the pounding slowed, then stopped entirely. I let out a deep breath. After looking at the sensors and counting exactly three life signs, I shut all the doors on the ship.

'“Tach”, Mallot asked. He looked slightly sick. “I need a clarification of your plan.”

“Yes?”

“How exactly are we going to walk through four or five vented rooms to turn the life support back on?”

“I hadn't thought about that. To be brutally honest, I figured our chances of getting even this far were so slim it probably wouldn't matter.”

“You're an asshole. Reroute power from here.”

“The circuit lines were cut during the battle! I can get the weapons online now. That does us a lot of good.”

It was getting really cold now. A little too cold to speak. I pulled the emergency fire blanket around me.

“W-ww-e-lll…Ta-ach…I j-just w-wanted to say one thing before we both f-freeze to death, I guess.” Mallot stuttered.

“Y-y-eeahh?” I stutter back.

“F-f-uck you.”

The comm crackled again. “Expressed this to you humans before. Engi body temperature must be kept between -4 degrees Celcius to 54 degrees celcius for most operations. Otherwise most discomforting. I have repowered your life support back to reasonable levels. Do try to be more considerate and careful in the future.”

I muttered a prayer of thanks. Mallot muttered something along the lines of “Fuck you too, Cremity.”

Not that he would have heard. Scanners showed Cremity had moved forward in the ship and was repairing the Medbay. When the O2 levels equalized, I chanced opening the door to the engine room.

It was a complete fucking mess. The Mantis, in their panic, had set off some sort of grenade to blow the door open. While none of them appeared hurt by it and they were all in one piece except for a mild case of being aphyixiated to death, there were bits of metal all over the place. I looked at Mallot. “Can you fix this?”

“Yes. It's a fucking mess, and it might not run well, but I can get it to dodge bullets and jump far enough to get out of the godforsaken sector. First I am going to the Medbay and downing as many pills as I need to to get my heartrate down and my head clear. Fuck all of you.”

After things had calmed down, Mallot and Cremity put the engine back together as I watched rather uselessly. Mallot was thinking about resenting me but I thought back at him that I was the only one who could fly the damn ship.

After waiting for along time, while trying not to be bored watching other people work and failing and being bored anyway, Cremity gave me a little Engi salute, said “Captain, the repairs we can do on the ship safely are complete. All systems are online, reminded that the hull is severely damaged.”

“Great, thanks a lot for the good work Cremity. You really saved our asses back there. Alright, now let's get the hell out of here. We've lost a lot of time, and the Rebel fleet can't be far behind us. We have to get to the next sector as soon as possible.”

“Excuse me.” said Mallot. “But Rebels? What the fuck are you talking about?”

I stared at him, dumbfounded. “The Rebel fleet that has been chasing us for days? The armada of ships that is hounding us while we've been fleeing to the safety of Federation space? What the hell is wrong with you?”

“Why the hell should I want to go to Federation space?”

“Because that's what you were hired for. It's the mission.” I said, exasperated. We did not have time for this.

“All the people that hired me are dead. I miraculously lived through a hell of a beating, and now I'm going to risk my life for a secret mission? I don't even know what the fuck makes this ship so special. I mean, they didn't even tell me what the hell we are carrying. The cargo hold is almost empty. Maybe we're transporting a secret supply of much needed holes for the Fourteen Fleet. Well I hope they get them. Good fucking riddance.”

“Look, it's not like you can exactly abandon us right now. There are three of us, and I'm the captain, and Cremity is obviously with me. And I'm piloting this ship to the Federation, whether you're on board with that or not.”

“Listen, I'm from a shithole of a planet. I'm on board for adventure, and shooting at ships full of people rich people don't like, but you're asking me to stand in the middle of a huge conflict between massive, galaxy warping powers. I fought in the fucking Mantis war. If I knew this was Federation-Rebel shit I wouldn't have signed on to begin with, and my life would be a thousand times better right now. I don't need this shit again.”

“But we have to-”

“Fuck you. Why is it so important to you anyway?”

“Because.” I said, pausing for dramatic effect. And to think of an answer. My thoughts immediatly turned to Skyler, who had saved my life. She had only been ever so slightly more affectionate than Mallot, but I had promised to pledge myself to her Mission, and I didn't want to let her and Travers down. I didn't want her to have died for nothing. But that wasn't likely to convince Mallot. And besides, if I was honest with myself, Skyler wasn't all of it. There was…almost a force, a drive deep within me to press on. I felt Cremity might feel this way, we had rescued him from slavers as well, so he wasn't part of the original mission. Part of me wanted to agree with Mallot, tell him that this was stupid, but something at the core of my being felt a deep, inexplicable aversion for this.“…we have to.” I finished lamely.

“Listen, we'll get to the next populated sector, have Cremity flare up a distress signal, but only as we high tail it with some other merchant or crew or fuck, we have enough scrap in back we can trade it for a small ship. Strike it out anyway but this godforsaken mess we find ourselves in.” Mallot said it, but it seemed as if he was just saying it because he felt he had to be an unsociable prick. There was, I dunno, less fire in him now.

The Engi shrugged. “Stability of the Galaxy in doubt. Violence will only escalate from here. The ship's computers are completely unreadable to me, suggests that valuable information about the rebel fleet. Can't break the Encryption, current methods will reveal the files in 17 galactic standard years.”

Mallot and I stared at each other, neither of us at the moment interested in what exactly the mission was. For me, it didn't really matter at this point. I was going to fly that ship to the fourteenth fleet or die trying. But I could also really, really use someone who could fire the Osprey's weapons. I could maybe hit the broad side of a planet with our burst lasers if I got lucky, but I was really only a pilot who was hated by targeting computers. I decided to try something different.

“Mallot, have you considered any reasons why the entire fourth rebel fleet is chosing to chase one inconsequencial rebel cruiser?”

“No, I can't say I have. I've been a little preoccupied with being fucking chased by the entire fourth rebel fleet and almost being violently torn to pieces by alien Mantises to have a chance to think about that.”

“Listen, you always talk about how you want your own ship one day. Listen, if the Rebels want this so badly, the Federation must want it at least as bad. I'm sure we can be paid handomely for this shit.”

“Fine, let's send up a distress beacon and sell this shit to the rebels.”

I felt very dumb this line of reasoning had not yet occured to me. Not that I was comfortable with it. For some reason, contemplating the idea felt akin to kicking a small, helpless puppy looking up at you and asking if you were its mommy.

“The Rebels can simply shoot you.” Cremity said helpfully. Almost absentmindedly. “They have proved more than willing to try at a suggested rate. Low probability of Rebel forces desiring this craft intact.”

Mallot put his fingers to the bridge of his nose and looked down, eyes closed, in thought. He looked me straight in the eye. “Fuck you.” A pause. “I'll do it. But fuck you, and if I don't get a diamond the size of my fist at the end of this I'm shooting you in the leg.”

“Well fuck then. Okay, we're jumping deeper into the nebula. Avoid all hostile contact, we need to get somewhere and make what repairs we can afford.” And hire a new shield technican. I thought mournfully.

I didn't want to wait around here another minute. I selected a destination, closed my eyes, and threw us into FTL.

End.

 
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The Strenuous Life

Today's post is inspired by one of my greatest heroes. He wasn't a perfect man - he shot his neighbor's dog just because it snapped at him once (his father had just died and he was a bit angry). But he was a passionate, vigorous man, and it's on this aspect of his life I'm going to focus today.

But first, he says it best himself.

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

This man is Teddy Roosevelt, and that quote is the Man in the Arena excerpt from his Citizenship in a Republic speech (highly recommended in its entirety).

And this is what he has to say about a strenuous life:

I wish to preach, not the doctrine of ignoble ease, but the doctrine of the strenuous life, the life of toil and effort, of labor and strife; to preach that highest form of success which comes, not to the man who desires mere easy peace, but to the man who does not shrink from danger, from hardship, or from bitter toil, and who out of these wins the splendid ultimate triumph.

What does he mean by this? Best to see the examples from his own life. He was weak and asthmatic as a child, and instead of embracing that and eschewing physical exertion, he tackled it head on and strangled it to death. He started exercising and took up boxing, much at the encouragement of his father.

And here I pause for a moment to honor his father, whom Teddy looked up to more than words can describe. From PBS's transcript:

But asthma continued to ravage him. He was anxious and suffered from a recurring nightmare that a werewolf was loose in his bedroom. His desperate parents tried remedies recommended by the best doctors of the day. Theodore was dosed with a medicine to induce vomiting, made to swallow black coffee, even forced to smoke cigars. At one point, he noted in his diary, his chest was rubbed so hard ''that the blood came out.'' When he was 11, his father took him aside.

He said, ''You have been blessed with a wonderful mind, but you have to build your body. You have to take charge of your body.'' In a way– in a larger way, he was saying, ''You have to take charge of your life.''

Determined to be worthy of his father, the sickly boy spent hours every day trying to build himself a new body, slowly ''widening his chest,'' his sister remembered, ''by regular monotonous motion – drudgery, indeed.'' His father even paid a professional coach to teach his son how to box, and every summer he took him on camping trips, hiking through Maine and the Adirondacks and around the Roosevelt summer home at Oyster Bay on the shore of Long Island Sound.

Sounds like an amazing father. In any case, Roosevelt mastered his asthma and became captain of his fate. After graduating from Harvard, his doctor advised him that because of his serious heart problems, he should take a desk job and eschew physical exertion. Roosevelt completely ignored that advice, and continued to box, hike, row, horseback ride, and play polo and tennis. Even as president, he continued to box until some guy knocked his retina out and blinded his left eye. Then he took up jujutsu.

Roosevelt's story is marked with tragedy, suffering, grief, and ultimately the will to swallow the grief and achieve “that highest form of success which comes…to the man who does not shrink from danger, from hardship, or from bitter toil, and who out of these wins the splendid ultimate triumph”.

His father died when he was at Harvard.

Shattered, for months he poured out his pain and bewilderment in his diary. ''How little use I am or ever shall be.'' ''If I had very much time to think, I believe I should almost go crazy.'' Along the shores of Long Island Sound, he sought relief in the natural world and in ceaseless physical exertion. He ran, hiked, boxed, hunted, and swam, wrestled.

He rowed a boat across Long Island Sound and back in a single day – 25 miles. He rode his horse almost to death, and shot a neighbor's dog just because it snapped at him. Then he fled to the Maine woods. ''Oh, Father, my father, no words can tell how I shall miss your counsel and advice.'' Many years later, when Theodore was president of the United States, his sister wrote, ''He told me frequently that he never took any serious step or made any vital decision for his country without thinking first what position his father would have taken.''

When Theodore returned to Harvard, he kept up his furious pace. He joined nearly every club, began a book on naval history, and fought for the lightweight boxing championship of the school, which he lost.

He found the love of his life at Harvard, but it was most assuredly unrequited. Unfazed, he pursued her relentlessly until she consented to become his wife. They moved in together, lived in paradise and he moved relentlessly up the ranks in his political career. She became pregnant, and happy anticipation was on everyone's minds. He was 25.

And then one day, he receives a telegram telling him his wife Alice has given birth to a beautiful baby girl. Flush with happiness, he then receives a second telegram.

He races home, finds his wife dying of kidney failure and his mother dying of typhoid fever. They both pass away within hours of each other on the same day.

This is what he wrote in his diary that day.

The light has gone out of my life.

He never mentioned his wife again. He abandoned his newborn daughter in the care of his sister, he abandoned his life, his career, and everything he had known, and rode west to the Badlands. He spent the next two years here, drowning out his sorrows through constant, feverish work and action.

An anecdote: As a deputy sheriff in the badlands, he hunted down three men who stole his riverboat, caught them, and guarded them singlehandedly for 40 hours without sleep so they could be brought back to town for trial.

In later life, he returned to politics and found himself appointed Assistant Secretary of the Navy, just moments away from rising to the very top and being Secretary of the Navy. Instead of keeping his comfortable loft and rising further in his career, however, he immediately resigned his post on the Declaration of the Spanish-American War, gathered a bunch of haphazard volunteers together, and shipped down to Cuba to fight on the front lines.

He quickly rose again to the rank of Colonel, and in the absence of any orders from superiors, urged his men to charge up Kettle Hill and San Juan Hill at the same time. He led the charge on his horse at the forefront of the advance on Kettle Hill. They captured both hills, and Teddy Roosevelt officially went down in history as an epic badass.

He is the only president to have ever received the Medal of Honor.

Later in life while campaigning under the Bull Moose Party, he was shot in an assassination attempt before he was slated to give an election speech. Instead of canceling his speech and having the bullet removed, he continued giving his speech for an hour and a half with blood seeping out of his chest.

Hell, he never got that bullet taken out. It remained in his chest for the rest of his life.

He died at the age of 60, after contracting a tropical disease and possibly malaria (for the second time, the first time being in Cuba) on a South American expedition through the jungle. He lost 50 pounds, became madly delirious, and had a fever of 103. He insisted that the expedition carry on without him, but ultimately his son managed to convince him to stay. He ultimately died of complications likely related to this expedition a few years later.

I doubt he regretted that much at all. This is one of the very few men who I truly believe wholeheartedly meant every vigorous word he expounded in his speeches. Actions speak louder than words, and I guess delivering a speech with a bullet lodged in your chest speaks pretty loudly. Being the youngest president then and now in the history of the US, the only president to have won the Medal of Honor, and to have become such a triumphant badass from such sickly and asthmatic beginnings - it really speaks something of a person.

At every moment in his long journey he faced every challenge head on and embraced the ideals of the strenuous life. Death does not faze a man who lives for something greater and believes in his principles. He could have died at so many instances during his life, and that was by intentional design.

What is a life without true risk? Without true challenge, true failure, without true 'danger, hardship, and bitter toil'? What is a life that does not know great effort, great strain? For Teddy Roosevelt, perhaps, no life at all.

This man is the greatest embodiment of the will to power that I've yet seen. Thanks for showing us how it's done.

 
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Meeting my cofounder in Antarctica

As a result of this story, I've come to be a big believer in the notion that doing interesting things that I like generally end well, even if they at first glance appear to have nothing to do with the rest of my life.

This particular story begins when a mentor of mine from the Thiel network that I had just met mentioned offhand that he was putting a trip together to go to Antarctica, ostensibly because it was Antarctica and why the hell not. Unfortunately, the trip was full, he lamented; otherwise, it would have been cool if I came along. I thought much the same thing and thought nothing more of it.

A couple days later and I met him again for whatever reason. This time, he told me that someone had just canceled the trip last minute and he'd be able to give me their spot, but I'd have to decide right then and there to go. Made a split-second call, thought about it - when would I ever have a chance to go to Antarctica again?, and decided I'd sign on board. A sizable check later and I was on my way.

At the time, I justified it because he mentioned that one of the people on the trip was a VC and had been an earlier employee at Nextag, and as I was at the time involved in building an ecommerce startup in the same space, it seemed like a great connection to make. At least, that's what I told everyone who asked was the reason why I was going. But I think it was pretty obvious that the real reason I was going was because it was, fuck it, Antarctica.

In any case, my buddy organizing the trip was nice enough to room Deven (VC/Nextag guy) and me together. I think we talked about ecommerce exactly once on the trip, and that was only by way of introduction. Pretty much after that, we started to realize that we were exactly the same person in every way possible - we read the same books, thought the same things, wanted to climb the same 7 summits, decided to be antisocial at the same times, and even had the same camera and floss (Panasonic Lumix GF1 and Reach Total Care).

At some point I'm pretty sure talking became relatively pointless because we knew exactly what we would say. By the time the trip was over, we'd already decided we wanted to climb the 7 summits together. Since we were both tragically skinny fat, we concluded the best way to go about the 7 summits would be to start at the very bottom with Mount Kosciuszko in Australia, which is more like a cute gently rollicking hill than a mountain.

So we both flew to Australia in February (that's another story in itself) after knowing each other for about ten days in Antarctica and climb this mountain (aka take a ski lift up and down after convincing a taxi to drive us ~200km there, wait for us while we climb for ~4 hours, before driving us ~200km back).

During this process, I inadvertently managed to play a small part in inspiring Deven to quit being a managing partner at his VC fund and become an entrepreneur. This thus began the remarkable process spanning over a year that ultimately culminated in us eventually coming together to work full speed on Sprayable Energy, from completely and utterly unrelated beginnings.

Thinking back about it all, I'm actually completely mystified how this all worked out the way it did. None of it makes any sense - and yet at the same time, it seems intuitively to make perfect sense. I think it's because we didn't really do any of this for 'logical' reasons - each individual step may have been somewhat logical, but the whole of it was simply because we connected on some deeper level than just the present pursuit at hand.

Anyway, this strange and entirely remarkably seemingly serendipitous turn of events really got me thinking. I had just gotten out of a cofounder relationship that totally did not work and was pretty much the worst thing ever, and that had come about as a result of actively pursuing that relationship for the direct purpose of having a cofounder. And here, I somehow managed to stumble into another partnership that worked incredibly well without any of the artificially imposed structure I had previously thought was necessary in a cofounding team - which was absolutely not my intention at all. So what happened here?

My conclusion is that it wasn't as serendipitous as it first seemed. Put in the right context, it actually made a lot of sense. Of course a dozen startup meetups probably wouldn't be as beneficial as one trip to Antarctica for me. Because what kind of person would also go to Antarctica on a whim just for the hell of it? Probably someone pretty similar to myself. And I'd probably get a lot more out of the close connection with the very similar people on this Antarctica trip than a hundred dissimilar people at a random meetup.

So potential moral of the story to be taken with a grain of salt (hard to extrapolate from just one data point): do what interests us, even if no direct value seems apparent. This generally tends to end well.

 
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Thiel Fellowship Closing Ceremony Speech

I have come to the conclusion that I suck at blogging on demand and that if I make myself write a post on Monday I will generally tend to wait until the last minute to write it. To counter this, I'm going to try writing every other day and only posting the best two pieces on Monday and Friday. If that still fails, I'll try every day and Tynan can tell me I told you so.

Anyway, in the meantime, as it's midnight CST here on Monday, here's the short semi-prepared speech I gave this weekend at the Thiel Fellowship Closing Ceremonies (we all gave a two minute quip about our two years).

There were a lot of surprising things I learned as a Thiel Fellow, but one of the most striking is how quickly two years go by. Most of my life’s seemed interminably slow, and when I accepted the fellowship two years seemed like forever. But here I am, two years later, and it feels like it’s gone by in the blink of an eye.

I have a few theories as for why that is. One of them is that strangely enough, the fact that the Fellowship seems to have passed so quickly is an indication of just how much experience it managed to cram into two short years. Looking back, the entirety of the fellowship feels like one long day of building things, learning, and meeting incredible people. There was no time to realize that time was passing.

In two years, I managed to fail at one startup, learn a ton of lessons, meet an amazing cofounder on an equally amazing trip to Antarctica organized by an also equally amazing mentor, discover, develop, and invent transdermal caffeine, patent transdermal caffeine, and am now in the process of building our new venture with the launch of our flagship product Sprayable Energy.

I think I’ve learned a few things along the way. One is a simple one – perseverance and determination, along with experience, goes a long way. Especially in startups, progress in the short term is incredibly difficult to measure, as it’s more often than not not linear or even sequential. One minute we might be on top of the world, and the next in a massive ditch. And a few minutes after that, we might be on top of the world again. So I’ve learned to not put so much weight on the short term and optimize for the long term, and we’ll see what happens in the end.

Another lesson was less apparent to me, and that’s that oak trees come from acorns. Richard Hamming gave a great talk called You and Your Research – in it, he noted that great work never came about as the result of trying for the great thing straight off – it always resulted from starting small, and planting the little seeds that ultimately grew into mighty oaks. So I guess what I’ve learned here again is to aim for the long term – I’m very impatient, but there’s no point in trying to build a skyscraper without first setting the foundation.

Anyway, I’d like to thank all my fellow fellows and everyone else in the network for being awesome friends and mentors and helping make this experience something I’ll never forget. And I want to thank my family for always being right behind me, supporting me the entire way. And I’d like to say a word of encouragement to all the incoming fellows – I’m super excited to see what you all do, and we’ll all get there in the end :).

Thanks!

 
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